In my Heart
There comes a point in your life, when you just had enough. You are done living a certain way and are ready to move on. That is where I’m at. I’m ready to open my heart and return to it. I’m ready to be myself, be excited and live the life style that best suits me; teaching meditation, creating content on youtube (music, vlogs, comedy), writing and traveling. There is nothing really else I want to do, and that scares me…
I have no desire whatsoever to work for other people nor do I have a desire to live in just one place. I am at my best when I work for myself and traveling. It is time to finally do it. I have always dreamt of moving around the country, being my own boss and making art. This is who I am and what I love. The days of doing what I am “suppose to” are coming to an end. It is terrifying because if I no longer have it in me to live the way I have been for quite some time, what happens?
I have narrowed it down regarding what I want to do at this point in my life. All thats left is really just taking a risk. Risk taking is something that I’m familiar with. It is not new to me, but with each risk I take, they always seem to be bigger than the one before. What if I fail? I don’t care. I am determined. As everything is coming to an end I feel my motivation and drive increasing. They only thing I can do is drive towards is my affinity. In a weird way it feels like I’m starting a brand new life.
I’m thirty-three. I’m not young, nor am I old, but I do know that life is precious. I’m not going to waste any more time. I’m ready to be on the road, embracing my independence and creativity. I can feel a massive change happening inside of me. It’s scary and its incredibly exciting. The care free spirit that I am is on the return and I feel happy.